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Name: Ashley
Country: United States
State: Kentucky
Metro: Covington
Birthday: 1/8/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: I love JESUS, hanging out with my friends, whether it be a movie, playin poker or chess or the crazy 4 player team chess called bug something, goin to Kroger or Walmart, just cillin, or talkin, or whatever. I also love dancing when no one but God can see, lovin on my doggies (Missy & Jackie), and good stories (in conversations, movies, TV, or books) especially ALIAS!!!
I love those deep one-on-one conversations with close friends where you can be completely open and vulnerable while feeling totally safe and secure, along with the silly ones that keep us sane!
Expertise: talking, writing, photography, being gullible dangit, thinking, procrastinating...
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  CrabLuppy
Member Since:
9/27/2003
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| I don't tell people when they hurt me. So, what happens? I begin to
build up resentment toward them without them even ever knowing it.
They act as though nothing is wrong, and we're chummy. But inside, I
have pulled away and built a wall that I can't even climb over without
possibly busting through by telling them why I'm hurt from three weeks
or three years ago...
I'm trying to be more open and honest, but
ith some people it feels like the wall has just become overwhelmingly
tall that I can't break it down on my own. And I resent that they'll
never want to help break it down...
So, then I decide to open up
to someone, right? And their response to my hurt? "ok" and "i dont
really know what to say so i won't say anything"... do people really
not care about other people??? do friends' concerns really only extend
to the advice they want to give you and not beyond to any pain they may
have caused you??? "Oh, she'll get over it," they say. Ok, then,
allow me to get over you. Goodbye! Except I'm too nice and care too
much. So, I continue to stick around to be their back-up friend, their
vent-to friend, etc, while I am still friendless...
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| So today totals the money I've spent on Pixie (my car for those who don't know her) to $1300...I thought i was broke before...I was wrong...but I am now!
On a positive side, my dad has a few interviews lined up...you know...so they might not have to lose their house...
So, I think my lower left wisdom tooth (I never had them removed...I have a total of 3) is abscessing...so it kinda stinks that I no longer have dental insurance or any money to pay for it anyway...hope I don't die...
Oh ya, and I have black mold growing in my apartment...so thats healthy too you know...
I am up for a promotion at work soon...pending my certification...pending...
pending...
my life is pending it seems...
eh
I'm doin' good tho.
How are you?
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| So I almost hit with my car only two cats, a bird, and one person today.
On my way home from work, I was driving down a two-lane one-way street. I stopped at a stop light, because thats what we're supposed to do apparently, and noticed a car pulling into the right lane from a parking lot. My attention is caught and I turn to look. There is a crazy-looking, bearded man in flannel pulling onto the street. This man looks at me and proceeds to laugh toward me as though he just pulled something over on me and drove off speedily in his old rusty tan boxy beast of a car. I just found that so odd that I didn't even notice the light had turned green until I was honked at by someone I assume was behind me somewhere...odd...
So who invented the idea of fairytales??? Honestly, whoever did, I really wanna just flip them the bird in my heart. Fairytales are BS. Ya...I'm a little irritated today. I like how Angelia Jolie's character in Mr. & Mrs. Smith put it (very lose quote from memory but with the basic gist of the quote): "happy endings are only stories that haven't ended yet.' Cynical much? Heck yes I am. And sad and hurt and stressed and feeling a little hopeless today...and so much more i can't even express.......
And how are you?
In broader news,
I have a gnat infestation.
I'm going to Virginia Beach next week.
I'm still a lazy bum who's not going to school and working retail...
Yay me......
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| So...you wanna know whats crazy? I think the bad may be over...for now...knock on wood. But I'm feeling happy again! Life is looking...dare I say it...up?!
I'm in an unexpected, new, refreshing, uplifting, healthy relationship with a great guy!
The family is doing well; things are getting better with God's guidance.
I'm going to church again, which is exciting.
I'm smiling and laughing and loving and praying and hoping!
God is good, even when we're not, both of which are constant! Thank God!
Woohoo!
Just wanted to give that mini update!
Also, if anyone wants to vaca in VA beach the first weekend in September to visit Natalie, let me know!
ALSO, if anyones gonna be in or near Mansfield THIS weekend, you should come to Berean Baptist Church Saturday night to see my brother's band (The Brain Brothers), among others, play in concert! Doors open at 6:30 and they'll be the first ones to play!!!
Love ya'll!
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| my motto: i can't handle this.
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